Sometimes I feel uncomfortable in my own house. Sometimes I feel alone in my house. Sometimes I feel scared in my house. Sometimes I feel like the outcast of my family.

If I could go back and change a few things, I would. I don't care if people say that "the past is the past and it makes us who we are", I would change some stupid fucking decisions I made. I am not the best kid in the world but you don't have to treat me like a fucking baby or completely different. Yeah, your cool, but why can't it be like before? I wish I was a normal teenage who hasn't fucked up over 10 times. It's not like I intend on getting caught, like anyone does?, by the cops or planned on going to the hospital, I just wanted to have a good time like... everyone else but it was always too much fun. I don't want to be like everybody else, I'm going to say it because I mean it, that I'm changing as a person... for the better, well..... I'm still me but I'm going to be a better, responsible Erin.
Sometimes...... I think that I deserve all my punishments but I hate them. Yeah, whatever fuck, it's my fault but I'm 15... shit happens like that YA KnoO? no. When I tell you I'm changing how my ways, believe me bitch!!!!!